And it's only 1030 in the morning here. Everything is hitting me now about the blow out with my MOH. I feel lost and I hate that we got to this. A part of me wants to talk to her and try and fix things but another part of me is afraid that it won't fix anything at all. Like I've mentioned before, she's not that interested in weddings, period. For what reason I don't even know. But I figured she would have given me more since it was for me. She's a very stubborn person and I feel like even if I try to talk to her it won't get us anywhere. Is there a point? I'm sorry if this post doesn't make much sense. I just feel... lost.
I thought that I would have heard from her since it happened. We haven't talked since August 29th. And the crappy thing is every time we talk about important things and it does blow up its always through text. She's not one to talk to my face about how she's feeling. She doesn't like the confrontation. She has told me a few times that after her brothers wedding is over (it's this weekend) that she would be able to spare time for me. If I were to talk to her and try and clear the air, should I wait until after the wedding so that she isn't distracted? Please help me. I feel like a bag of poop.